Who we become...

Its rather interesting how we become what we become. Are we going to be doctors? transit officials? government employees? Are we going to be losers, bums, homeless people? Are we going to abuse alochol, drugs and cheat on our husbands/wives? Are we going to be rich and famous or happy and middle class? Is the middle class happy anyways?

I'm sitting here trying to think of something I can be, someone I can become by picking some vague and as of yet, unknown career path. This career path destined to change who I am and who I will be in the not so near future. As of right now I can be anything, and that is an idea of which I greatly relish. But once I choose, I have to stick with that choice. I just limited my potential from 100 to 10. Once I choose, I have become a stastic waiting to be proven. A variable in the game of life.

I wish I could just choose tomorrow. Or the day after that.

I suppose we ultimately choose a career path based on needs and values.

So then logically...all I have to do is figure out who I am and what I stand for, and all I know right now is that I sure missed the rain.

Past...

I realized yesterday, that I have been running from the truth my entire life. When I was two, I saw my oldest sister raped by my birth father. I have decided to stop running. I will find out all the details of my past that I have shut out. I'm going to ask them what they know.

Sometimes....

Sometimes I watch movies or tv and realize inconsistencys that will drive me nuts trying to figure out if it truly was inconsistent or perhaps I just overlooked something.

Sometimes I get tired of people, tired of everyones masks, tired of the self destruction that is inevitable through human nature.

Sometimes I wish people could understand themselves, understand there own problems as well as everyone else around them does.

Sometimes I like to think that for everyone person out there who thinks they are the only one in the world with this problem or feeling this lonely, that they could find that one other person, who knows exactly what its like to be them.

I am always more emotional while watching movies than while expierencing real life.

Sometimes I get annoyed with everyone who cares more about the minute details of the music that they are listening to, than the sounds that come out.

I hate people over 500 pounds that havent realized yet that they are fat. Not only are they fat they are obese. Two hundred years ago you'd of died by now. Now you eat pills along with those artery clogging fatty delcious-ness. I hope you obese people die. You steal food from starving people. Then you want to cry about it. Go live in some third world country and try to cry about it then. You have to catch your own food to live, good luck with that fatty.

A side note - I believe in Aliens.... and they probably arent green.

I dont say goodbye to people because then they'll know I'll be back.

I dont ask people how they've been after they ask me, neither of us care, why bother being poliet?

I hate how words look like they are spelt wrong when you know they are right, but for whatever reason you continue to ponder this correct spelling of a four letter word that should be elementary.

Back to the Aliens - How is it possible that we are the only thing alive in this universe?

White People

So here is a tendency I have noticed in white people. If a white person is talking about someone of any other race they lower there voice and say no offense, or I'm not being racist but... etc etc. Its ironic in that all other races have no problem doing the opposite of this. I think this has more to do with white people being ashamed of what there ancestors did or did not do. Because lets face it, all white people did not participate in slavery. A good amount of white people did, and a good amount of white people didnt. Not to mention slavery didnt originate in America nor where African Americans the first race of people to be condemmned to a life of slavery. This is just the most recent case that a country was built on. Because this country was in good part built on the backs of slaves. Proper respect must be given to the past, but in moving forward people need to learn that everything one says and does is not judged as racist or not.

Point being white people. You arent being racist for saying what you think, unless you use a racist slur, in which case you are in fact being racist. Boo on you.

Problem Solver!

So this is my grand idea! There are many contrasting views on abortion and whether or not you are for or against it I think this problem could be solved by a simple soultion. Make a government standard for everyone who is sexually active use birth control. Have condoms be free and given out to anyone who needs them. Yes! This is going against many of our civil rights and freedoms, and no it will no totally get rid of the abortion debate. However, without many unwanted babies being put into foster care, the state wouldnt have to pay money out for these children. Not to mention Welfare wouldnt be as expensive since there would be less children in need. Would it be expensive to make sure that there is plenty of birthcontrol pills or condoms to go around? Most likely, however in my opinion it would not only take away from people having to choose whether or not to have a child that is unwanted, or whether or not to keep it. The debate over when a child becomes an actual person is less of a debate when there are many less children to be had.

I know this is controversial. I know there are not actual facts to back this up, though I'm sure if I wanted to create a better thesis. However. This is all I have for now. ^-^ Cheerio.